SLIP, DIP, OR TRIP?
So here I
was in my very first fight in Columbus
Ohio the City of my birth, on my
very first day of school with Martin Fields. I was going through the motions,
but my heart wasn’t in it by a long shot, in fact I was pretty scared to say
the least! There was so much noise and yelling and what’s worse everyone seemed
to be happy about it and having a good time! All of a sudden life made no
sense, and I was lost in it. I was totally at a disadvantage to this sort of
behavior, God how I longed for the safety and sanity of Brezolles France ! I was scared,
but couldn’t show it and I wondered if they could see it?
I did wonder why I was scared after all this kid was smaller
than me how bad could it be? The chanting got louder and we bobbed around each
other like carnival clowns and all of a sudden BAM! A hit! Dead-Square in the
right eye! MY RIGHT EYE! I didn’t cry, I was too embarrassed and ashamed of the
fact that I knew I was not going to fight this kid under these insane
conditions and as far as I was concerned it was over! I really didn’t want to
fight at all! How did I get into this mess? I thought to myself, “I know, it
was my parents entire fault”! Why did they bring me to a place like this? They
must have known I wouldn’t fit in! How could they not know? I missed Madam and
Annie Claude, I missed France .
The red X marks the exact location of the scrimmage. In the
midst of my embarrassment and pain Dennis Walker stepped up to help things end
out by saying, “Hey man he ain’t trying to fight nobody, he ain’t even from
around here”! Eventually we started walking hearing all the slurs and taunts
along the way. I was making the best
exit I could under the circumstances. Dennis walked with me all the way to my grandparent’s
home where we were staying and there was a trail of little girls following, giggling,
and making sport the whole way! I didn’t know it then, but I found out later
they only give you that sort of attention when they like you or something! How
backwards! I did not equate that with liking at all, I really thought they were
just being mean! Well most of them anyway except for one little girl named Gail
Weaver. She looked like she could be one of my sisters or cousins. I noticed
that she maintained a sort of sadness while the others seemed to be having the
time of their little lives at my expense.
84 S. Oakley rear view
The closer we got to my grandparents home the more I started
to think about how my mom was going to react. Then I really started worrying
about what was going to happen when my father got a load of me and my big black
eye! Yeah, I had a bloody nose once from getting punched in Rantoul Illinois and I acted my
way around that one, but I had never had a black eye before! And by a little
guy at that!
We reached my grandparent’s house and everyone separated
silently and let me maintain at least a small degree of dignity! I guess they
could have been loud and ribbed me all the way until I got to the door, but
they gave me a break of sorts and I was relieved that they did! Now when my
mother came to the door and opened it I saw the look on her face change from her
average to a look of panic! “Oh my God boy what have you gotten yourself into”?
She grabbed me by the shoulder part of my jacket and pulled me into the house
to give me the third degree.
In the process of being drilled by my mother on how to be
more Christ-like and thereby avoid the pitfalls and vices of society, my
Grandmother went about her usual routine of cooking and setting things up for
dinner as if nothing were out of the ordinary. My younger brother Timmy however
took a totally different approach to the situation and seized the opportunity
to rub my nose in the fact he knew I got beat up! He watched as my mother was
questioning and preaching with a look on his face that almost screamed, “You
got your butt kicked”. Then he let out a loud laugh and sang, “You got your
butt kicked, you got your butt kicked”! “What a little prick”, I thought to
myself.
“He’s in with them, and he’s supposed to be my little
brother”! I reasoned later down the road that maybe that was his way of getting
around the embarrassment for me.
(Timmy)
Fortunate for me it had all died down by the time my dad got
home. I stayed upstairs in my room to avoid him.
I knew then that I was in a world of crap and I reasoned as
best I could that I was going to have to live with it and make a comeback
somehow! I had big dreams about how I’d be a big deal at my new school and in
these United States .
But obviously I slipped in my
thinking, failed to dip when the
punch came, and inevitably tripped
over the leg of ego to my own disadvantage at least for the time at hand!
Things were about to get really hot and busy on the Hilltop of Columbus, OH and
I never thought I’d turn out to do some of the things I did, but I did! Some
good, but many not so good.
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